This morning I woke up alone… Mr. had to work, and I laid in bed telling my cat Daryl how much I didn’t want to go on a run, I looked at the weather.. 34 degrees and snow at 11 am, I thought about all the house work I had to do, I need to write an IEP. . I told Daryl all of these things, I explained to him that I just should wait until Monday, that I had already missed my Thursday run why start now. . .
But for some reason I looked at Daryl one last time and got up and put on my running clothes. I have been doing the program Fitness22 in order to try and be able to run a 10k by this Spring sometime, I have to say having a little lady in my head telling me to “Keep going you are worth it.” Has helped me in some weird way.
And today as I ran. . snow started falling and it reminded me to be thankful for my legs that are able to carry me around, for my cat that is still curled up in bed and for the life I have made 2 blocks away from this park.
I had been running on and off for almost 8 months when I downloaded this app and essentially start all over at the Run 1:00 minute Walk 1:00 minute mark, I did this because I wasn’t making any progress just going out and running the same 2:00 mile stretch of park 2-3 times a week. I have run 2 5k’s since I started and today my run was 36 minutes consisting o 18 minutes of actual running. And I have to say it is getting easier.
I am able to see the beauty around me now as I run, as opposed to just feeling like death. I am able to appreciate the people who run passed me, instead of being jealous, I am able to run the full 8 minutes and still think about how far I have come, instead of wanting to rip my heart and lungs out.
So now I just keep reminding myself to keep going, and to get out of bed. . the beauty is outside, and Daryl and all of my work will still be there when I get home.